That i wasn’t such a push over.. my friend at work always tells me how sweet i am and that im too nice to everyone.. i wish i could just be a total bitch, tell them to fuck off when they want to ‘borrow’ money or shit like that… yeah i think im just gonna start being horrible to everyone.. well to be fare, i don’t think anyone is as nice to me as i am to them so why should i continue …

whatever.. life is a load of shit right now, i just want my boyfriend back home so we can book our holiday for my birthday and hopefully our trip to mumbai in november… i guess i have something to look forward to… for now i’ll just stick to cuddling with my giant tigger teddy and watching stupid romantic films that make me even more depressed.